Self-Portrait, Sea Cave, France, 1992

In high school, my mom intercepted phone calls and letters from boys. The pill and free love entered my culture but not my parents. They wanted to prevent stain befalling me. I didn't want to be under their taboos. When I had the chance to explore sexuality, I took it. I wanted to apply my own code to sex. A woman told me she had developed a system of touching herself to orgasm and then blessed herself with that vibrant energy. She imagined the sensation spreading as white light through her arms, legs, and head enhancing her aura. I too wanted to use sexual pleasure as a way to feel well about myself.

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